2 months

It feels like a lifetime with her and it has only been 2 months. She has grown so much in the past 60 days. Her smile melts me. Although its tough always having a human attached to my boob and constantly needing me, it is so so fulfilling. I was really worried about the whole postpartum depression and although I've had bouts of weird sadness, overall I feel great.
I struggled at the beginning with letting others hold her (I still do a little), I guess you could call it first time mommy syndrome. I cringe thinking about germy hands or I have crazy thoughts of someone accidentally dropping her. I really don't like when she cries---not because it is annoying but because it makes my heart hurt a little. It has gotten a lot easier though, I am more comfortable with others holding her but I am still uncomfortable leaving her alone with others (unless its Robert) for long periods of time. I am so craving just a little bit of time though, just so I can go on a motorcycle ride with Robert. Robert seems to be loving the daddy life; he gets so excited to come home and play with her. I think he mostly loves putting her to sleep so he can cuddle with her. He has been working forced over time since he has been back at work--10 hour days 6 days a week. We send him pictures while he works and he always says he loves getting them. Sleep seems to come and go, some nights she does so great I will get a solid 4 hours with a feeding and another solid 3 hours and some nights shes up the entire time. Honestly I don't really miss the sleep I just crave the block sleeping like at least 4 hours at a time, well that an caffeine. Because I breast feed caffeine really effects her so I avoid it at all costs.  Overall though things are great!
We got some news that we would be going to San Diego again, at first we were told it was a longer stay (from July to February). Now they have changed it again so we are expecting August to October (just like last year). We are excited for the little get away but nervous about having our place all alone over here. Here are some photo updates!